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Thursday, February 27, 2014

STRESSED to the Max!!!

I don't have a lot to offer this week... I'm spent.  I am overly stressed at work, eating a crap load and not getting in as much exercise as I would like.  I have been working until 8 every night this week - ONE night I did come home and work out for an hour... but it was because I ate a box and half of cookies and felt like complete shit (damn GS Cookies).

My accomplishments for the week (there are not many)

  • Went to costco to get fruit for the week, cut it up and did eat it all week
  • Cut up all the veggies and made salads for the week and ate them (almost all of them)
  • Even though I knew I was going out to eat on Sunday, I still made a meal so we'd have left overs to eat for the week (I knew it was going to be a busy one.
  • I went to zumba 1 day this week (sad that it was only 1 day)
  • Per the first paragraph, after working a 12 hour day I still came home and did a video work out
  • And last, but certainly the MOST major accomplishment is... I went in to the jewelry store just to have my ring cleaned and ended up getting is sized down (I was waiting to reach goal to do this, but it's just too big).  I went from a 6 3/4 to a 6 (and it's still a little big)... but it looks and feels like brand new :)   I think this will actually be a big motivation for me (YAY, I freakin need something with this shitty weather we have here in MN).

I'm not sure how I pulled this off but I lost 2lbs this week.  And tomorrow I leave for an ice fishing vacation.  Very little movement will be happening there, but I started a burpee challenge today (day 1 complete... this is going to be hard because I was breathing hard at 5) - so at least I'll get some sort of exercise while I'm there.

Wish me luck, my goal is to stay the same next week!

I can't wait until I'm Healthfully Ever After.

Thursday, February 20, 2014


Wow, is all I have to say.  When I'm off, I'm off.  I did a terrible job this week.  I didn't hardly track at all.  I was in training Thursday and Friday and after training on Friday I headed down to my parents house for the weekend.  My mom is good at feeding me good foods, but I can still find the hidden foods in her house (and dammit I look!)

I got home Sunday afternoon and left again for a business trip Monday night and got home last night.  Not wanting to cook any dinner of course so we went out to dinner.  I was not good, I had that mentality of "well I've already effed up the week, why not tonight too."

So it begins, the downward spiral.  Oh how fast that can happen.

I have not worked out since last Tuesday night.  I have not planned a meal in over a week.  I have no motivation to do either of those things.

I must.

I must.

I must.

Today is my reset / restart.  I am officially back on track.  I hate the fact that I've had to restart so many times in the last 7 months... but at least I'm able to refocus myself.  I have to, I do not want to be back where I was.

I just just need to figure out what it is that will inspire me once again... I know I will.  I just need to push myself.  Food is not worth it.

I'm not sharing my results this week, just know it's bad and I'm sad about it... I'm back to where I was the week before Christmas.  Please pray for me that I get myself refocused and back on track.  I need all I can get right now.  I need to remember how good I feel when I eat right!

Take care and have a great week.

I can't wait until I'm Healthfully Ever After.

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

Just Eat It Already!

So, this was an interesting week.

I did ok Thursday (not perfect, but ok) but I still wasn't "back on" completely.  I tried really hard, but wanted something sweet.  So I ended up getting an ice cream cone at DQ, which I didn't really have the points for.  So I dipped into my weekly extra points.  No big deal, right?  Since it was Thursday and they start all over.  The big deal was that I needed to cut myself off of that downwards spiral and I didn't.

Friday was a hot mess.  A shit storm, if you will.  I ate what I had planned for breakfast and lunch, but I had quite the set back once I left work.  I made some horrible choices... I still wanted that damn burger that I didn't allow myself to order on Wednesday night.  So I had it.  That was that.

THAT, was my reset.

I got that craving out of the way and from that night forward I was "healed."

I did well on Saturday (I went over points, but it was because of wine - TASTY wine.  I count the wine, but it's not usually something I crave, so when I allow myself to have it and it takes me over my points, I'm usually not too worried because that's not something that will KEEP me going in the wrong direction).

Sunday - OMG Sunday, I was a beast! I got up and lounged around... full well knowing I needed to get my ass to the gym and run (my race is in 5 weeks!!!).  I hadn't run in a week and half (just over) and my last run was HORRIBLE.  So I kept putting it off because I had such a bad experience the last time.  My husband made us breakfast (eggs, ham, veggies and cheese scramble) and I was making up my grocery list for the little trip I needed to make.  I didn't get out the door to the gym until 11.  I got up at 8 am - so needless to say I was surely taking my time.

I got to the gym and spent more time stretching out BEFORE (I never do that, I just do a 2 minute warm up walk).  I had talked with a co-worker (hey girrrrrrl) about what stretches she does and tried some of them.  I think it helped some (I have a major foot issue going on - with my heel and achilles) and will continue to do the stretches before running.  I actually need to start doing them before Zumba as well. I'm getting to the point where just walking hurts.  So if doing this for a few more weeks doesn't help, then I need to go to the doctor and have it looked at (bummer!!!).

After I ran, I went to the grocery store (like I mentioned) and ONLY got what was on my list.  I was going for a few staples and ingredients for this venison chili we wanted to make.  OMG it was good... and I dislike venison (a lot).  Here's a link to the recipe if you're interested, really you could use a lean steak or maybe even pork if you wanted  (we didn't make the corn bread or creme fraiche).

Once the chili was done, I was starving so I ate quick.  Then decided (while eating chili) that I was going to go to the drums class at the gym.  I'm sooooo glad I did.  At the end of the day I had over 8 miles in, 18,000 steps and 14 activity points for the day (a normal day with zumba only, I get about 4-5 activity points).

The rest of my week has been great.  I've eaten well, exercised much and feel good!  I'm so glad I got that damn burger in because that craving was running my life!  So the moral of the story is, sometimes just give in to that darn craving.  It may be just what you need to get over that hump.

The results for the week were piss poor though.  So I weighed in at a different location than normal.  Usually I can judge how I'm going to do at my weigh in (when going to my regular place) by getting on my scale.  Which hasn't budged much since last week (MIND BAFFLING)... but I technically would have been down 0.2 lbs this week had I weighed in normally.  I went to a center and I was up by 0.4 lbs.  Granted I feel heavier this week, my period feels a little messed up.  I'm not supposed to get it (techically) until next week - but I will most likely get it this week.  All the signs are there (I hate the signs and the feeling).  So I'm not going to sweat the scale.  I just can't.  I know I did WAY better this week than last, so moving on.

Anyway, I'm going to have another good week... lots of activity and eating healthy.  I hope you do too!

I can't wait until I'm Healthfully Ever After.

Thursday, February 6, 2014

A Failed Plan

Wow, WOW is all I have to say.  I did horribly this week.  There were many reasons behind why my week was horrible that I don't want to go into and I really hate excuses.  But sometimes "it is what it is" and "we do what we do" based on our situation.

I'm not HERE because I know exactly how to eat when I'm in stressful or emotional situations.  I'm guessing you're probably tracking with me if you're reading my blog.

I was thinking about why I ate what I did at my scrapbook retreat... because we always say this isn't the last time you're going to have these foods in your lifetime so you don't need to indulge THAT much.  I indulged, it was on different things.  Some things I've had before, some things I hadn't had before and some things that are just a major weakness of mine.  I didn't follow my "plan" at all.  I knew what I was doing while I was doing it, but apparently I didn't care enough to change it.

All I can do is think about how I can make changes NOW and move on from such a horrible week.  This coming week SHOULDN'T be a week challenged with temptation.  One never knows what's going to come up or trigger those bad habits, but right now I don't foresee any issues.

I can say I'm super stressed at work and I really need to figure that out.  I need to figure out how to channel that differently.  The stress isn't going to go away so I need to figure out how to deal with it.  Oh, and I need to go grocery shopping.  Badly.

That's all I've got for this week, sorry it's short and not so sweet.  I promise next week's post will be better.  My results for the week are a gain of 6 lbs (yeah, that's right WOW!!!).  aaaaand now I need to hit the 90# mark AGAIN (so frustrating, but it's all my fault!!!).

Good luck to you this week, I know I'll do much better!

I can't wait until I'm Healthfully Ever After.