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Thursday, March 26, 2015

I am worth it!

This past week has been interesting for me.  I've made a lot of good choices and some bad.  I can't help some of the bad sometimes and I'm not sure why!  Maybe because I'm human?

I know when going for that candy that I really shouldn't do it.  Not because I can't have it on Weight Watchers, but because I typically don't want to stop and it leads to other bad choices.

When I go to my Mom's house, she always has some kind of treat there and I always want it.  EVEN if it's nothing special.  If she tries to hide it (you can bet after reading this she will try to hide now), I WILL FIND IT.  I think it's the comfort of home feeling.  So Mom, PLEASE don't hide it, because it actually makes me want it more.

As you know, I've been working really hard lately to stay on track - meaning exercise and eating.  I'm really proud of myself because I feel like I've got the motivation AND the will power back.  That is really hard to get back when you've lost it for some time.  I literally lost it for a year.  Pretty much a whole year (2014) maybe more.

What got me back on track???

Honestly, I don't know.  Maybe it's because I gained a bunch, enough to make me have to buy more clothes, feel miserable and feel that the weight was making everything harder for me.  Maybe it was my dad's death last year (he was a very unhealthy person - eating and in general our genes are not the greatest).  Maybe it was knowing that my other family members are having issues and I can see myself in them.  I honestly don't know.

I'm back to "no more excuses."  Honestly, I hate excuses and always have.  No one can do this for me and there's no magic pill that's going to help.  There are things that enhance weight loss but eventually they don't work and most of them can make you pretty miserable during the process.  And if they don't, it's not something that you will likely continue for a lifetime.

I need to remain responsible for my weight loss/gain, the choices I make and the effort I put in.  I am committed.  Totally committed.

I did lose this week.  I didn't work out as much as I did the previous week and my activity points weren't as high as they have been... but I balanced out my points accordingly (or at least made a good attempt at it).  My loss this week is 2.6 lbs.  A great weight loss (I think some of this should have been last week LOL so it's make up and proof that the scale doesn't always show your progress right away).

With that said, I'm about to embark on a two week vacation, where I want to do and try everything.  When I get back, I'm going to read this post so that it reminds me that I can get myself back on track.  It is possible!  I love myself and care about myself enough to make it happen!  I am worth it (so are you)!

You won't hear from me for a few weeks.  So enjoy your break!

I can't wait until I'm Healthfully Ever After!

Thursday, March 19, 2015

Must Meal Plan

Well, I had another successful week.  Not as successful as last week, but I was still successful.

So if you're wondering why I've been so successful, I'll tell you it's because I'm planning my meals (so I know how many points I am using and what I can "play" with), tracking my points (making an effort to only use my activity points not my weekly - I used both this week, hence the .6 loss) and I'm working out about 5 days a week.  Still only walking or biking (more biking).

This coming week is going to be extremely stressful for me.  We are preparing for a long vacation and it's to a place I'm completely unfamiliar with.  So I'm super stressed.

I need to follow through with my meal planning until we leave.  It will be challenging because I need to keep grocery shopping to a minimum so we don't have anything go to waste.  That will be my challenge for the week :)

Anyway - after next week you won't hear from me for a few weeks.  But, I'll pick up where I left off when I get back.  Vacation will be vacation.  I'm not stressing about food.  We won't have a car and will be walking and taking public transportation everywhere so I'm sure I'll get in a ton of exercise.

Have a great week!

I can't wait until I'm Healthfully Ever After!

Thursday, March 12, 2015

Nailed it!

I have been feeling AWESOME while staying on track.  I have more energy by eating foods I should eat as well as getting my exercise in.  I will admit I'm bored with my exercise routine, but really trying to hold myself back from doing what I always do... get obsessed and burn myself out.

So for now it's still walking and biking - more biking than walking and most of it's all indoors.

I was a little nervous for this past weekend.  We had company.  My sister and brother in law.  I always want to please them and make foods that they would like.  This weekend was no different.

Friday night we had pizza from Papa Murphy's.  I bought three pizza's and we really only needed 2.  I wanted to make sure that I could eat with them so I bought myself my own veggie thin crust pizza.  Man is their veggie pizza the bomb... and I had enough points to eat half the pizza (I hope I was doing the math right).  Volume is a big deal to me.  I probably could have had 1 maybe 2 pieces of their pizza versus 4 of the veggie.  I made sure I went to the gym before they got here so I cleaned my house Thursday night and a bit here and there through out the day on Friday.  I beat Friday!!!

Saturday was probably the most nerve wracking day for me.  We didn't really know what we were going to eat at all.  We went out to breakfast - I picked what I wanted.  Thankfully it wasn't that good so I didn't eat the whole thing, but I ate most of it.  We didn't eat lunch - I snacked on a piece of licorice and maybe had some fruit.  My sister in law and I went for a 3 mile walk outside (OMG was that awesome) - so I was able to get in some exercise.  Then came dinner.  We were literally up in the air for dinner until about 3:00.  We decided to go to a brazillian BBQ... all you can eat hot / salad bar and as much meat as you can eat.  I did what I wanted... I left full.  Very full.  Uncomfortably full.  I also ate three bars that night - two lemon and one brownie.  I could have eaten more... but I didn't.  I was still uncomfortable when I went to bed.

Then came Sunday.  I got myself completely back on track... for the rest of the week.  I was so proud of myself and feel like I made some huge progress.   I could have done what I did the previous weekend and let the badness spill into Sunday... but I didn't.  I wouldn't allow myself to.  While they ate eggs, english muffin bread, sausage, bacon and cheese... I ate a protein shake, fruit and one piece of bacon.  I didn't even feel deprived (because I let myself have a slice of bacon).

This week was a total win for me.  I feel like I nailed it!  I don't even care if I lose this week (I did, but I don't care really... I was a good healthy eater 90% of my week!).

The results for the week are (drum roll please)... I lost 2.4 lbs.  I am well on my way to feeling better and making our upcoming trip a success.  We are going away for two weeks - Denmark and Italy.  Can't wait.  Am not going to go overboard there, but will eat what I want.  We will be walking everywhere so I will definitely get all my exercise in while there.

I can't wait until I'm Healthfully Ever After.

Thursday, March 5, 2015

Challenge presented, accepted and (mostly) met!

So this past week went fine.  I went out of town for 1 night (yes 1 night) with my college friends.  We rented a hotel room, got hockey tickets and headed down for a day/night on the town.  I was a little nervous on how to handle it because I have been so incredibly good lately and I didn't want it to get all messed up because of one little trip with friends.

I set out with some goals this week:

  1. I was only going to be bad Saturday, I was not worry about counting points or what I was eating or drinking, I just wanted to have a good time.
  2. I would be totally on track for the 6 other days.
  3. I was going to work out Saturday morning before I met my girlfriend.
  4. I was not going to puke.
  5. I was going to stay the same.

I met goal 1, 3 & 4... with goal 2 I came very close... but I was so hung over that I splurged on Sunday too.  However I was very good for the rest of the 5 days.

What I'm most  shocked about was goal 5.  I was way up on Monday morning (like 6 pounds) and a little discourage.  But I fought that feeling and stayed on track... as the days went on the pounds from the weekend were dropping off.  I was about the same as I was last week.  But by the time I weighed in today, I was actually down .6 lbs... so I exceeded my #5 goal.  I'm proud of that because I do feel that I worked hard this week even with the two binge days.

This week's challenge is that I'm having company all weekend.  Where there's usually a lot of eating out, munching on snacks and drinking.  I know the drinking will be in check, I don't NEED to do that.  I'm not going to buy a bunch of snacks to have on hand... but the meal planning is going to be a challenge.  I've looked up a bunch of recipes and want to make healthier food - so I'm going to try that and see how it goes (and that is if we don't go out to eat... if we go out to eat - LORD help me because I'm not as good at being good at restaurants).

I hope you have a plan for any upcoming challenges you may have.  My weight goal this week is to continue to lose (I'm on a 4 week weight lost streak) and not just stay the same... so wish me luck!

I can't wait until I'm Healthfully Ever After.

Thursday, February 26, 2015

On Triggity Track!

I am ON FIRE right now.  I don't even care what the scale says this week!  I feel great and will continue to do what I'm doing (well, except for Saturday/Sunday this weekend... a little college reunion going on).

So, let me tell you about my week.

Food.  On point.  Literally so on point that I didn't even use any extra points this week and only ONE of my 27 activity points I earned.  Now, to be fair, I didn't eat out at all this past week and that totally helps.  I had nothing going on with friends (other than one lunch out, where I ordered a plain 'ol chicken salad) and we didn't really do anything or go anywhere over the weekend.  Other than to the gym.

Which leads me to the gym.  I am attempting to mix it up between the bike and the treadmill like I did the week before.  I like the bike because all I have to do is sit there and watch my show (I'm onto season 4 of "It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia" -- terrible show if you don't like slap-stick comedy).  The treadmill is much harder to do that because there's only two treadmills in the gym where they are setup well enough for my phone to be at a normal eye level for watching the screen.  Otherwise, I just listen and look down every once and a while.

The most exciting thing for me this week is that I branched out and went over to the weight machines.  Now, you must know - I dislike weight lifting (at first).  Part of that is that I'm scared because I don't remember how all the machines work (I know that free weights are the way to go but shit if I can't even do them on machines, you think I have any clue how to do things with free weights???) and the people on that side are intimidating... and they stare at you.  Or maybe it's me staring at them... trying to see how this all works.

Regardless... THIS is a huge non-scale victory for me.

The hard part though is that when I do weights, I don't want to do cardio too (meaning on the same night).  Therefore my "steps" suffer as do my activity points earned from my ActiveLink.  So, that's a bit stressful to me as I like to see things quantified.  I like earning those points, it's very much a motivator for me.  With my Fitbit and the steps I get from that... also very much a motivator as I can compare my steps to others... and prior to this renewed sense of "take care of me" I was down in the bottom 20+ people and now I've been #1 or #2.  I like being up there.  I am a super competitive person.  Like terribly competitive (you know that if you know me personally).

Anyway - I feel like a rock star.

The scale was good to me as well.  Of course it's hard to follow up a week where you lost 3.2 lbs... so I'm very happy with my 2 lb loss.  I am going in the right direction.  Lets just hope I don't go too hog wild while I'm away this weekend and that I can pick myself back up and get right back on that horse as soon as I walk in the door on Sunday.  I hope that you too have found a way to either stay on track (if you have been) or get yourself a renewed sense of "take care of you" time!

I can't wait until I'm Healthfully Ever After.

Thursday, February 19, 2015

My work is paying off... finally!

So as I mentioned last week my focus has been on both food and exercise.  I am a tracking and exercising maniac!  I feel like I'm doing everything I can to stay within my points.

Last week I was a little disappointed because I didn't lose as much as I had expected. My level of activity had been insane...  I had earned 34 points.  I used all of those points, my weekly extra's plus another 6.  In the past I haven't had a problem with that I could go probably 20+ negative and still lose.  But over the last year I haven't been able to go "as negative" as I had in the past.

I've thought about that a lot.  When I work out that much I get way more hungry and I feel like it's doing the opposite I need it to do.  So this week I was going to try and not use my extra's.  Well that is almost impossible for me because I don't like to deprive myself (because that ALWAYS backfires on me) and most of my extra's used are within 1-3 days of my week not literally spread out for the whole week.  Maybe that's why it was working for me.

This week I decided to cut down my activity a little.  I didn't work out 2 of the 7 days... and my work outs are really either just riding bike (for an hour) or walking on the treadmill (for 2 miles) and then the bike for another 8-10 miles (typically an hour regardless of what activity I'm doing).  Nothing taht is too terribly intense.  In the end, I had only earned 23 activity points... I used all of those plus 41 of my 49 weekly points.  So I had 8 points left over.  THIS, I see, is a success.

If you compare "extra" used from this week to last (including those that I earned and gained)... there's a difference of 11 points used... but the earned to used usage is a difference of 22 points...  I think I may have found my mid-ground.  I lost 3.2 this week.  I am beyond thrilled!  It's sad how much this motivates me, I hate being a slave to the scale.  But it's a true fact for most of us.  I don't think that will ever go away for me (sadly).

Either way I'm calling this week and extremely successful week!  I'm more motivated than ever.  I don't have any new goals to work towards other than just keep on doing what I'm doing.  Trying to keep that middle ground with my exercise and eating.  I know I won't lose big next week but If I continue down this path I will lose.  Period.  If I go back I won't and I will gain quickly... I've proven that already and don't need to prove that theory out any more than I have.

Good luck to you on your journey... I hope you can find your way back if you'be been lost.  You have to want it!  Period.  There's no way around it.  You also have to do something to change.  Easy for me to say right now because I feel in absolute control.  But one can be thrown off that thrown so easily and quickly... I'm praying for my continued strength!

I can't wait until I'm Healthfully Ever After!

Thursday, February 12, 2015

Working HARD

In the last 5 weeks, with the exception of one because I was on vacation, I've turned over a new leaf.  I have been back to the gym at least 3 times a week if not more.  I have been tracking... and in the last two weeks have been really trying to stay within my allotted points (plus extras of course).  I'm much closer this week than I have been in the last 5.  And I'm feeling in control.

BUT

The scale is not my friend.  It has barely budged and this week, when I've been the best, I've only lost .8 lbs.  It's not an insignificant loss, but in my mind it should be a few lbs..  From what I was doing to what I am doing now, I should be down 5-8 lbs in these last 5 weeks.  In fact, I'm down 2 total.  It's just frustrating.

Regardless...

I vow to continue to track, exercise and not let this get me down.  I'm also going to try (TRY) not to use my exercise points.  This past week I had 33 exercise points and I used them all with my "extra" that WW allows.  In the past that has not been a problem from me... but here we are 3 1/2 - 4 years later and I'm in my 40's.  Maybe I just can't do that anymore... this will make it much harder for me though.

So please, if you're out there and reading this.  Please pray for me that next week will show some results on the scale.  THAT is what I need right now.

I can't wait until I'm Healthfully Ever After.