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Thursday, February 11, 2016

Working on Changing My Mind

Wow getting back on track is so much harder than I ever imagined it would be.  I need to get the negativity out of my mind... but it's so hard.  Over the last week I've been more than miserable and may have actually hit rock bottom.  I don't want to jinx it, but I feel like my mind may be changing.

I have been keeping up with getting my 8 times in at the gym this whole time, but was doing nothing more than that.  Wasn't tracking - well maybe a day or so I'd track and then I'd quit.

This week I went to the gym twice and I worked out at home.  I bought a new video to work out to.  It's a beginner video from Jillian Michaels.  It's same 30 day shred concept, but it's low impact.  You do three different work outs, each work out is done for 10 days and then you move to the next level (work out).  I can do this!  I've done her videos before.

Why am I doing this video?  Because I saw a picture of a woman who did this recently and there was a significant change in her body.  So I said, what the hell... these videos are under 30 minutes (the first 10 days is 22 minutes I think, then they increase each week but nothing is over 30).

The is definitely low impact and that makes me sad because that was even a bit challenging for me right now.  But hell, I haven't done anything strenuous in about a year.  So baby steps it is and I can't be sad, I need to be happy I'm doing something for myself.

I also have to continue to go to the gym.  I need to get my $20 a month back so I have to go 8 times.  I figure doing this video may get me back into cardio classes at the gym.  I used to love them, I need to love them again.

I'm also recommitting to tracking.  I need to see what I'm capable of.  When I'm focused on losing weight, I do not have a hard time doing it.  But keeping that focus is hard to do.  So here's to a challenging yet rewarding week!

I can do this.

I can't wait until I'm Healthfully Ever After!

Thursday, January 21, 2016

Post Holiday Confession

I was out of control.  OUT OF CONTROL I say.  I did not meet my goal, in fact I gained 10 lbs over the holiday season.

I'm fighting to get it off now.

I am not fond of the new program at all and am really struggling to suck it up and move on.  Because without it, I know I'll continue to gain.  I keep saying I'm going to try it and then I start tracking and get discouraged that many of the things I used to eat have doubled in points.  What makes me upset is IF (I mean IF) I followed plan before, I totally lost weight.  So I don't understand why such a big change to the program.

Weight Watchers used to be about eating what you want and just making yourself accountable for them.  And I feel now, it's just really difficult because those indulgences are just outrageous now whereas before they were just where you had to think "ok is this really worth it."

I think that Weight Watchers should have eased into this big of a change over time instead of BAM! here's the new way.

Regardless, I need to figure out what my next moves are.  I'm not so sure I know what that is at the present moment, but I best figure it out soon.  I need to get my added weight off and it's now a significant amount I need to re-lose... so there's a lot I need to be doing right now.

Over the next week, I will be trying to figure out what it is I want, what I can handle and what I'm going to do to make this work for me.

On a good note, I went to an all inclusive week long getaway last week and came back with losing 2 lbs.  I ate and drank what I wanted to but we did move around quite a bit.

I can't wait until I'm Healthfully Ever After!

Thursday, December 3, 2015

Working towards that New Year goal!

I'm still chugging along... fell off track for Thanksgiving week, but pushing to get back on this wagon.  With that said, I'm up a bit.  I did get to the gym though.  Which makes me pretty happy.  I just need to get that food in check.

My goal is still to be down on the first of the year from pre-thanksgiving weight... I will make that happen!  I will.

I will be hitting the grocery store, we need some good veggies and fruit in this house STAT.
I will be getting to the gym 3 times / week.
I will track everything that goes into my mouth.

If I follow those things, I'm bound to lose weight.  I know it!

I can't wait until I'm Healthfully Ever After!

Thursday, November 19, 2015

Maintaining, Good Enough?

This week I was able to maintain the same weight.  I didn't track like I should have. I really only tracked Monday - Wednesday and not even all of Wednesday.  But what I did do was try to be "better" beginning Monday.  I had a bit of a fun eating weekend, without it being to terribly out of control.  More movie popcorn issue than real "food" issues.

I was able to get to the gym two times... but I need to do more.  I need to get there 3x a week for it to make a difference.

In today's WW meeting, we talked about our Thanksgiving meal and how we're going to handle the holiday (s) and what we really want out of it.  Honestly, I need to lose weight.  We are going on vacation January 10th to a warm place - so I really need to get to a better weight in order to feel comfortable.  So my goal is to actually lose weight over the holiday season.  I'd love it to be at least 10 lbs... so I really need to stay focused and make it happen.

It's not going to happen at the rate I'm going.  Even though I've done better since our move, I still need to do more.  More tracking, more exercising and being more concious of "is it really worth it?" thoughts.  Mantaining is really not good enough for me right now.  Need to actually lose!

So... there in lies my plan!

I can't wait until I'm Healthfully Ever After!

Thursday, November 12, 2015

All Moved and Unpacked... time to get serious

Between the last time I posted and now I have been to New York for a week and packing up our old house and getting all prepped for our move - wow is that a lot of work.  It's been 9 years since we last moved, there's so much to organize and so many things to update with a new address.

We're all moved now.  We moved two and a half weeks ago and by  that first Wednesday we were 90% unpacked (not decorated... just unpacked).  We just have the annoying little things left now.  Like hanging pictures, organizing the storage room and garage... and I guess this isn't annoying, but it will be a chore - I still have my craft room to put together.

I'm thrilled to be in my new home and already feel settled and very happy.  We have our forever home, we will not move again until we are too old to live in this house.  It will be a bit much for me to keep up with the cleaning, but we actually have space now.  Space to move, space to put things and space to entertain.

My New York City trip was amazing.  It was half fun and half work conference.  The fun was FUN... the conferece was great.  I feel like it was definitely worth my time (and not a waste of money for my company).  I had to miss a weigh in while in New York, but weighed in the week after.  I had actually lost 2 lbs.  That was due in part to having to pack up as soon as I got home.  I wasn't counting points or trying to keep track of anything.

After that it was the weekend before the move and the move.  Again, didn't track and was moving around a lot.  But apparently I ate more than I moved and gained 1 lb last week.  We had company for the weekend that arrived on Friday.  I was able to make a few meals in my new kitchen (ONE of the main reasons I wanted this house).  It was great to have some company already especially when they are super good workers and helped us get the house more complete.

This week, while still moving around a lot getting things organized and changing up the placement of other items... I started counting points last Thursday.  This week I got myself back to the gym and was able to lose 2.4 lbs... don't let that fool you - I'm way up.  But this was the direction I wanted to go vs. up up and away!

I will be tracking again this coming week and getting even more exercise in.  YAY me!

I can't wait until I'm Healthfully Ever After.

Thursday, October 1, 2015


Happy happy October... this is a great month.  Next week - My birthday, my anniversary and off to New York and then we move!  BIG BIG things for me this month.  My posts will likely be short and sweet (and maybe sparatic) for the rest of this month.

With that said... I know I'm overwhelmed... I can feel it.  I can feel the constant stress... and it will be like this until we move and are settled.  It's not a good feeling for me, nor do I handle it well.

I didn't track that well this past week and I really wanted to.  I found myself going back a few days and trying to remember what I ate and when... guessing at the points.  I'm sure I missed things, but it did help put into perspective how bad I really do when I don't think about it.

I do want to do better this week... I really do.  But I think my goals have to be super tiny right now, because it just stresses me out more when I don't meet them.  So my tiny goal this next week is to get to the gym at  least 3 times.

I need to get my gym time in because soon I will be off to New York... and with that comes food and entertainment.  A lot of walking too, but I'm pretty sure not enough to work off all the stuff we will try while out there... and after I get back we will have two weeks before I move.

It's also a busy time for me at work.  So I need to stay focused on that as well.

Friday, September 25, 2015

Working to Feel In Control

Well this week I lost 1 lb. I'm a little surprised as I was a bit over on my points... but I tracked most days, worked out and was packing.  I could obviously lose move if I try to stay within my points.  But I'm still working with baby steps here, so my goal is to track all 7 days regardless of what I eat.

I was able to get to the gym 3 days this past week, so that is also a very good accomplishment.  I only have one more to go before I hit my goal for my healthcare insurance and get my $20 back.  I looked at how well I did this year and for the year my goal was to get my 8/month in each month so I'm not wasting my gym membership.  I can say since February, I've made it each month (I set the goal in mid-January) except for June.  The reason for June is that's the month we prepped to put our house on the market and I was getting plenty of work outs in at home.

I'm feeling a bit more in control and definitely better day to day by eating a bit healthier.  I haven't felt like this in a while, so I'm proud of myself for that.

We are still packing and going gang busters here, we want to be in a good place before our vacation so that we're not rushing that last week and a half.  So I feel very in control there too.

Things are coming together for me.  It will be harder as time goes by as we are trying to eat everything we have in the house before we move - so meals will get interesting :)

Either way...

I can't wait until I'm Healthfully Ever After!