I am worth it!

This past week has been interesting for me.  I've made a lot of good choices and some bad.  I can't help some of the bad sometimes and I'm not sure why!  Maybe because I'm human?

I know when going for that candy that I really shouldn't do it.  Not because I can't have it on Weight Watchers, but because I typically don't want to stop and it leads to other bad choices.

When I go to my Mom's house, she always has some kind of treat there and I always want it.  EVEN if it's nothing special.  If she tries to hide it (you can bet after reading this she will try to hide now), I WILL FIND IT.  I think it's the comfort of home feeling.  So Mom, PLEASE don't hide it, because it actually makes me want it more.

As you know, I've been working really hard lately to stay on track - meaning exercise and eating.  I'm really proud of myself because I feel like I've got the motivation AND the will power back.  That is really hard to get back when you've lost it for some time.  I literally lost it for a year.  Pretty much a whole year (2014) maybe more.

What got me back on track???

Honestly, I don't know.  Maybe it's because I gained a bunch, enough to make me have to buy more clothes, feel miserable and feel that the weight was making everything harder for me.  Maybe it was my dad's death last year (he was a very unhealthy person - eating and in general our genes are not the greatest).  Maybe it was knowing that my other family members are having issues and I can see myself in them.  I honestly don't know.

I'm back to "no more excuses."  Honestly, I hate excuses and always have.  No one can do this for me and there's no magic pill that's going to help.  There are things that enhance weight loss but eventually they don't work and most of them can make you pretty miserable during the process.  And if they don't, it's not something that you will likely continue for a lifetime.

I need to remain responsible for my weight loss/gain, the choices I make and the effort I put in.  I am committed.  Totally committed.

I did lose this week.  I didn't work out as much as I did the previous week and my activity points weren't as high as they have been... but I balanced out my points accordingly (or at least made a good attempt at it).  My loss this week is 2.6 lbs.  A great weight loss (I think some of this should have been last week LOL so it's make up and proof that the scale doesn't always show your progress right away).

With that said, I'm about to embark on a two week vacation, where I want to do and try everything.  When I get back, I'm going to read this post so that it reminds me that I can get myself back on track.  It is possible!  I love myself and care about myself enough to make it happen!  I am worth it (so are you)!

You won't hear from me for a few weeks.  So enjoy your break!

I can't wait until I'm Healthfully Ever After!

Must Meal Plan

Well, I had another successful week.  Not as successful as last week, but I was still successful.

So if you're wondering why I've been so successful, I'll tell you it's because I'm planning my meals (so I know how many points I am using and what I can "play" with), tracking my points (making an effort to only use my activity points not my weekly - I used both this week, hence the .6 loss) and I'm working out about 5 days a week.  Still only walking or biking (more biking).

This coming week is going to be extremely stressful for me.  We are preparing for a long vacation and it's to a place I'm completely unfamiliar with.  So I'm super stressed.

I need to follow through with my meal planning until we leave.  It will be challenging because I need to keep grocery shopping to a minimum so we don't have anything go to waste.  That will be my challenge for the week :)

Anyway - after next week you won't hear from me for a few weeks.  But, I'll pick up where I left off when I get back.  Vacation will be vacation.  I'm not stressing about food.  We won't have a car and will be walking and taking public transportation everywhere so I'm sure I'll get in a ton of exercise.

Have a great week!

I can't wait until I'm Healthfully Ever After!

Nailed it!

I have been feeling AWESOME while staying on track.  I have more energy by eating foods I should eat as well as getting my exercise in.  I will admit I'm bored with my exercise routine, but really trying to hold myself back from doing what I always do... get obsessed and burn myself out.

So for now it's still walking and biking - more biking than walking and most of it's all indoors.

I was a little nervous for this past weekend.  We had company.  My sister and brother in law.  I always want to please them and make foods that they would like.  This weekend was no different.

Friday night we had pizza from Papa Murphy's.  I bought three pizza's and we really only needed 2.  I wanted to make sure that I could eat with them so I bought myself my own veggie thin crust pizza.  Man is their veggie pizza the bomb... and I had enough points to eat half the pizza (I hope I was doing the math right).  Volume is a big deal to me.  I probably could have had 1 maybe 2 pieces of their pizza versus 4 of the veggie.  I made sure I went to the gym before they got here so I cleaned my house Thursday night and a bit here and there through out the day on Friday.  I beat Friday!!!

Saturday was probably the most nerve wracking day for me.  We didn't really know what we were going to eat at all.  We went out to breakfast - I picked what I wanted.  Thankfully it wasn't that good so I didn't eat the whole thing, but I ate most of it.  We didn't eat lunch - I snacked on a piece of licorice and maybe had some fruit.  My sister in law and I went for a 3 mile walk outside (OMG was that awesome) - so I was able to get in some exercise.  Then came dinner.  We were literally up in the air for dinner until about 3:00.  We decided to go to a brazillian BBQ... all you can eat hot / salad bar and as much meat as you can eat.  I did what I wanted... I left full.  Very full.  Uncomfortably full.  I also ate three bars that night - two lemon and one brownie.  I could have eaten more... but I didn't.  I was still uncomfortable when I went to bed.

Then came Sunday.  I got myself completely back on track... for the rest of the week.  I was so proud of myself and feel like I made some huge progress.   I could have done what I did the previous weekend and let the badness spill into Sunday... but I didn't.  I wouldn't allow myself to.  While they ate eggs, english muffin bread, sausage, bacon and cheese... I ate a protein shake, fruit and one piece of bacon.  I didn't even feel deprived (because I let myself have a slice of bacon).

This week was a total win for me.  I feel like I nailed it!  I don't even care if I lose this week (I did, but I don't care really... I was a good healthy eater 90% of my week!).

The results for the week are (drum roll please)... I lost 2.4 lbs.  I am well on my way to feeling better and making our upcoming trip a success.  We are going away for two weeks - Denmark and Italy.  Can't wait.  Am not going to go overboard there, but will eat what I want.  We will be walking everywhere so I will definitely get all my exercise in while there.

I can't wait until I'm Healthfully Ever After.

Challenge presented, accepted and (mostly) met!

So this past week went fine.  I went out of town for 1 night (yes 1 night) with my college friends.  We rented a hotel room, got hockey tickets and headed down for a day/night on the town.  I was a little nervous on how to handle it because I have been so incredibly good lately and I didn't want it to get all messed up because of one little trip with friends.

I set out with some goals this week:

1. I was only going to be bad Saturday, I was not worry about counting points or what I was eating or drinking, I just wanted to have a good time.
2. I would be totally on track for the 6 other days.
3. I was going to work out Saturday morning before I met my girlfriend.
4. I was not going to puke.
5. I was going to stay the same.

I met goal 1, 3 & 4... with goal 2 I came very close... but I was so hung over that I splurged on Sunday too.  However I was very good for the rest of the 5 days.

What I'm most  shocked about was goal 5.  I was way up on Monday morning (like 6 pounds) and a little discourage.  But I fought that feeling and stayed on track... as the days went on the pounds from the weekend were dropping off.  I was about the same as I was last week.  But by the time I weighed in today, I was actually down .6 lbs... so I exceeded my #5 goal.  I'm proud of that because I do feel that I worked hard this week even with the two binge days.

This week's challenge is that I'm having company all weekend.  Where there's usually a lot of eating out, munching on snacks and drinking.  I know the drinking will be in check, I don't NEED to do that.  I'm not going to buy a bunch of snacks to have on hand... but the meal planning is going to be a challenge.  I've looked up a bunch of recipes and want to make healthier food - so I'm going to try that and see how it goes (and that is if we don't go out to eat... if we go out to eat - LORD help me because I'm not as good at being good at restaurants).

I hope you have a plan for any upcoming challenges you may have.  My weight goal this week is to continue to lose (I'm on a 4 week weight lost streak) and not just stay the same... so wish me luck!

I can't wait until I'm Healthfully Ever After.