I'm a believer!!!

Last week I indicated I was going to hibernate and focus on me.  I did just that and I (once again) totally redeemed myself!  I lost 3.6 lbs and my total is now 90.8!!!

I worked out EVERY day and most days did 2 work outs.  It totally paid off!  While I exercised a lot, I wasn't perfect on my food - but compensated for that by putting in an extra work out on those days that I was a bit on the naughty side.  I had pizza and cheese bread one night, went to Culvers and ordered a burger and onion rings AND met a group of gals out for a Greek brunch.  I did major damage that day, but kept up on my work outs so I didn't feel as guilty!

Ok onto topic now!!!

You may ask what I'm a believer in... and the answer is crazy - A LOT.  LOL.  But what I'm specifically referring to is - I'm a believer in self talk.  Oh my word, this week was full of self talk.  I asked myself several times...

• Why are you doing this?  What was my answer?  I'm doing this for oh so many reasons!
• I want to get off all my blood pressure medicine.
• I want to continue being able to walk up my stairs in my house (only 1 flight) without having to catch my breath.
• I want to be healthy so I can be around for a long time.
• I want things to be easier for me .
• I want to be able to keep up with my niece and nephew without having to be worn out.
• I want to WANT to do things outside of my home... but this comes with the challenge of continuing to make the right choices (which I still need to work on).
• I want to feel in control of my life again.
• I want my husband to be attracted to me (he's never said he wasn't but damn... I wouldn't have been).
• I want to want to do the things we used to do - like snomobiling, fishing and the like.
• I want people to not judge me for being fat.
• I want to feel attractive in general.
• Do you want to be healthy or do you want that fucking ice cream cone (or pretty much insert any fast food or bad choice food)?  In the ice cream cone incident this week, I chose to be healthy!  It wasn't easy and I had to trick myself.  I went to the gym and didn't take my purse.  So I couldn't even buy it :)
• Is that X, Y or Z worth the points?  The answer was... in some cases yes (insert Culver's and pizza here) and other cases it was no  - HUGE progress from the last month (from falling off the wagon).
• Do you feel in control this week?  The answer was yes, even though some of my choices were bad - they were WORTH it to me!

I'm not sure if you do a lot of self talk, but for me it totally works!  I knew what I wanted this week which was to focus on myself.  I walked and exercised a lot as well as making a lot of good choices (I'm super proud of myself).  I exercised EVERY day and there were a few days (literally 3) that I honestly didn't want to work out - but because of my commitment I did it (remember to set small goals and MAKE yourself make them).  Friday, Saturday and Sunday -- I walked down our busy boulevard - DANCING (literally)... most people loved watching me.  I can't hear if they are yelling things at me because my music is so loud - but I choose to perceive them as liking what they see.  I'm sure I'll be on YouTube.

Next week the focus remains hibernation mode -- exercise and eating right... but what I'm adding is back to my making my huge amount of salads ahead of time so I'm not rushing to do it in the morning.  I truly hope my blog is helping you get yourself back on track... it takes time, but you must force yourself to do so (and then it will be come second nature) in order to get what you want.

Ask yourself what is it that you truly want!  Do you want to be what you are today or do you want to work towards a healthier self?

I know I can't wait to be Healthfully Ever After.